✝ Don't hope -- the hound / by some chance killed / end of story.

✝ Oh / the / offer to help / contented as ever / in life. / much that he demurred

✝ The followed, / sent / suffering / ordered no more / were to be sent began at once / cast, / chartered / When the day arrived upon / suspended / burned / went / with / every / fight followed the / battle / of / the / man-of-water / resolved to destroy them.

✝ prey to deep and stubborn grief / gloomy shades / kind, Nor to be turned aside; to die / supplied; issuing, / met

✝ vapouring / malady of the sea, / of / great burdens. / vessel, / they tell me / very much pleased

✝ heard of his death, they / mourning him. / assembled without delay, chose / ravaged / senses / fate / advised / should be put to death, / should be tortured reserved for death / burned body / ashes carelessly, mingling / triumphal funeral procession. / men crowned but weeping at the same / time, / scarcely seen / carried / accompanied / noblest / armour, / hands joined / procession / joined / mourning / lost, death, / buried with great honour, / believe, / death. many made / honours / afterwards unfortunate time / destroyed, / yet alive, / suffer / always honoured

✝ Come, sorrowful, see flaming / eddies overhead drops / of red / flash under / darkling depths, roll slowly up / hot sun's shattered beam, / Come, sorrowful; lovelier than / sleep.

✝ preserve / childlike tenderness, gentle / chivalry / sermons / framed / named, persuaded / traces of / purer theology / shadows of things to come," / recognized / persists / one sees and / marvels / pure, sweet / striking / "the soul / people, / holy brightnesses / Goodness, kindness, spirituality, stream

✝ influence on / hearts judiciously / life was happy had been wretched / miserable. All the days joyous; / marked days; / home to laugh, play / with / pleasant to tell, so full / of life, ready / amusement.

✝ ate when i was hungry until i was satiated — 12/25/2024

✝ filled up my thermos with nice cold ice water — 12/28/2024

✝ stopped eating the noodles once satiated — 12/28/2024

✝ finally feeling as if i've gotten through the worst of caffeine withdrawal (4,000mg to sub 200mg) — 12/28/2024

✝ clipped a gel pen to the fridge with a magnet to make shopping list writing easier — 12/28/2024

✝ ate delicious little gummy lifesaver treats and sour cream and onion pretzel snacks — 12/29/2024

✝ yapped away with my brother on an impulse :-) and told him kindly to go home, eat, and go to bed with no worries about needing to dash — 12/29/2024

✝ pushed through the fatigue to give myself a warm cup of milk tea to linger over in bed while feeling in a bad way — 12/30/2024

✝ had a good outcome from being vulnerable with my childhood best friend and asking for something that i wanted, and feel would be good for my mental health. was brave enough to open up about it — 12/30/2024

✝ changed the bed linens and added a plush topper onto my mattress. so soft — 1/1/2025

✝ ate dinner when i got hungry instead of going to bed on empty (mm fries :3) — 1/3/2025

✝ been feeling really proud of myself for continually showing up to the commitment i made to myself of writing in my physical diary on the daily to hold an open dialogue and conversation with myself — 1/5/2025

✝ filed my nails down for the first time in months, finally, so that i'm much safer and it's not as painful to type with — 1/6/2025

✝ took a shower — 12/25/2024

✝ poked around at some bbcode & integrated a tamanotchi AND status.cafe with a rss feed — 12/27/2024

✝ tinkered around briefly with the details html function! — 12/28/2024

✝ reached out to a friend to share about an interest they might enjoy — 12/28/2024

✝ grinded out what i needed to do — 12/29/2024

✝ had a good, honest conversation with my ex — 12/29/2024

✝ got a few pages written by hand today :-) — 12/30/2024

✝ was brave enough to talk to my childhood best friend about being open and vulnerable for something i want and need and that would be helpful to me. really scary convo — 12/30/2024

✝ had a very difficult conversation that was for the best; ultimately: entering the new year better off, lighter — 1/2/2025

✝ decided to make the commitment of showing up for myself and building trust through journalling daily to improve my self esteem — 1/3/2025

✝ set a little time aside to indulge in low spoons creative hobbies: black-out poetry, (and collaging when i've a little more) — 1/4/2025

✝ cobbling together my mood tracker and making it all cohere made me really proud of myself- especially with my dyscalculia causing a few flubbed numbers, but all was easily fixed, and i even made the highlight all round and cute like pixelcandypills — 1/4/2025

✝ checked in on a friend even when i've been really low spoons — 1/5/2025

✝ powered through some extremely difficult tasks. even if things go badly, i'm much better prepared for another crack at it when the time comes — 1/6/2025